It's almost my birthday. October 19th marks the day of Liza Ellen. It is also 4 days from the beginning of Libra world domination! We're almost in season!
I'm turning 31 and I've reached that age where people say, "Girl! You still got it!" I'm not sure if I should smile or cry but I usually choose to smile and laugh. Honestly, anyone over 30 knows that you don't really get shit until you're 30+. That's when you get it! I'm excited about this time and all the beautiful people I've met in this past year. I'm definitely living my life like it's GOLDEN- Thanks Jill Scott. I can also admit that I'm finally done hating on Beyonce! YES! That time is over. I hate to admit it but I was one of the many. I don't agree with everything but I can honestly say the girl is bad! I think maybe that phase was about my own hunger to fulfill my own calling and to do what I was born to do, fulfill my own mission in this life. I always knew.....
Some of us were born knowing. You know who you are. You knew your purpose or passion as a child. If you were like me you ran from it, you pretended not to hear "The Call". Yet today it still resonates in your spirit and when you come near someone who is answering their calling you struggle with two feelings. You either feel inspired because you are ready to go against the grain and answer yours or you feel miserable because you stand in the light of truth and know you are lying to yourself.
It's a heart trembling feeling to know you are missing your calling. I've been there. The change happened when I challenged my fear and opened my mouth. I was terrified and felt so alone on stage. I was insecure about my looks, my sound, my ability.... I was mortified. Yet little by little I grew, I tried, I sang a little louder, I sang an original piece, I read an original poem and one day I was at home. Then I knew the fear that kept me from answering my calling was a lie, a worst case scenario morphed into an only case scenario.
I'm still on my way! Not by any means have I made it! However, I have made my way to my truth. Knowing I am living my best life and honoring my true self is unlike any feeling imaginable. It turns those moments when I fought feelings of despair my most triumphant eras. It makes the sacrifices, risks and failures I have endured beautiful testimonies to my conviction. I can be proud of myself! I didn't surrender! I am finally living my truth. It only took 31 years! LOL!
So this is my ode to Libra and proof that I'm done hatin' on Beyonce. LOL! I LAV this song! Enjoy!!!
Monday, September 19, 2011
Friday, September 2, 2011
I hope this works
This is ANOTHER blog/vlog I'm starting. The others were flops. Primarily because I'm inconsistent and uninteresting when limited to a theme. Trying to be purposeful can get in the way of your purpose. In addition to that I was never really honest. Did a lot of posturing, copyediting, rewriting, revisiting. This will be a journal/video journal of my existence. I'll do my best to be as candid as possible. Hopefully nothing will incriminate me or reveal how "touched" I really am. That is a secret between me and my parents! I won't be wearing make up all the time and my hair won't be fresh everyday. I'm working on these things -not too hard. I hope to leave this as an open opportunity for folks to interact with me, critique some of my work, check out my development as an Artist/Writer/Business Woman and a Mother . This will not be a reality show. I will not fight anyone or post information about who I'm sleeping with unless he's the one. . . possibly. I have plenty of challenges, I have lots to say, lots to do, lots to fix, lots to be proud of and this is a chance for anyone who cares to watch me try and live The Life.
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